23.May.25
Hobby guilt
I feel super guilty about flip flopping between hobbies. Like, whenever I move onto the next I feel like i've wasted time, money, energy even tho I know eventually I will return to the hobby. I've always been a creative person, so I have felt this way since I was a little kid. But, I didn't have adult money then so I only stuck to hobbies that I could afford with the little money I saved.
I think I probaly have something up with me. My mum keeps telling me that her and I have ADHD but I am highly doubtful because my lovely mum has unfortunatly been sucked into into the wild west of facebook reels.
Anyways...
I feel weirdly guilty about the whole hobby thing. I only spend a day to maybe a month if i'm lucky, super into something but then I loose total interest, get sad,
have a big cry and or a mini mental breakdown and then I move on to the next thing. I think the guilt comes from feeling like if I just put more time into it, I would become super
good at the said hobby but then I always move on. So, I am adverage at many random things which makes me feel super un-interesting. Like, so many people are insanely talented and great
at certain things but i'm just adverage at many. The whole jack of all trades is a master of none saying. I cannot just stick to ONE thing tho, I get so resentful of it. I know this
cause I do this all the time. I start businesses, get bored and then start a new business. It makes me feel like such a failure...